I’m so pissed off right now I can hardly see straight. Flower’s got some work issues to deal with today and it looks like her visit over to see me is once again fucking cancelled. I know she’s a business owner and she’s got alot to deal with but at this point I can’t help feeling so fucking angry. My selfishness is shining through and I can’t help it. This will be the 4th time I won’t be able to see her because of unforseen things.

I’m sorry Flower, I know you had a bad day and I’m sure you’re as upset as I am. I just hope it gets better for you.

I woke up this morning wavering whether or not to bring my yoga stuff to work as she was supposed to get to my house by 6 or 6:30. I decided to bring it in any case just in case she did have to cancel. What’s that have to say about how things are going? Good fucking thing I’ve got PureCalm here, I’m sure Flower needs some about now too.

I can’t wait to go home this coming weekend and get completely trashed for 4 days straight. At this point I need it… bad. Hopefully yoga after work will help calm me down.