Probably one of the worst birthdays to date. I guess it just started off all wrong. I just played it by ear and went down to Rocco’s by myself while I waited for friends to get ready. There I had a few drinks at the bar before someone came over and told me Trish was there. As soon as I heard that I split and headed back home. Met up with Eli and Chad and hit a few more bars. I couldn’t shake the feeling of Trish being around so I really didn’t enjoy myself and just tried to drink away that emotion. Not a great idea.

I’m not sure why it bothered me. Whether it was that she forgot my birthday, or that she was happy on my birthday and for the most part I was miserable. Regardless it left me with that empty meaningless feeling all night. The only plus for the entire day were the birthday wishes on my Facebook page from friends all over the world. I just wish I could have celebrated with them instead of spending one more miserable night out in West Palm.

I know it all sounds miserable and selfish but at the moment that’s pretty much how I feel. I hate being single, I’ve come to that conclusion. The holiday’s make it that much worse.