As I’m sure you’re aware there’s a very special woman in my life but things aren’t going so well right now. I’ve been getting emails and phone calls about this pretty much all week so I thought I’d try and tell the story as best as I can.

Flower came over last Wednesday and I took the day off. We had a great day together but she had a few things to tell me. She had recently had stomach surgery to repair a couple ulcers (labor day weekend) and they found cancer in her stomach. They did a few blood tests to see if it had spread to her pancreas, which it hadn’t thank god. Waiting for the news that day was tough and I wanted so much to be there with her all day.

All of that and the 4 hour time difference between us makes dating or having a serious relationship tough. If we were in the same city or at least closer things would be different but I can’t be with her when I want and that makes it heart wrenching most days.

So she let me go, knowing it was the right decision. Neither one of us really wants it to end but we both know what needs to be done. I continue to go back and forth fighting between my heart and mind as to what’s best and my soul’s been reeling ever since.

So, that’s the story. She goes to the doctor’s office today to find out what they have in store for her. Probably a removal surgery and mild chemo but she remains optimistic. This isn’t the first time she’s dealt with cancer and she’s an incredible woman. Very happy, positive and upbeat most times. I don’t want to ever lose contact with her and we still talk daily but are both trying incredibly hard to keep the conversation light and not get into how much we both really do miss each other. It’s probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to go through alone.

Her blog today nearly made me cry. Yeah, somedays I’m a wuss. My thoughts are with you today Flower and I love you.